When You're in Love

"When you are truly in love, you go to great lengths to be with the one you love. You'll drive for hours to be together, even if it's only for a short while. You don't mind staying up late to talk. Walking in the rain is romantic, not annoying. You'll willingly spend a small fortune on the one you're crazy about. When you are apart from each other, it's painful, even miserable. He or she is all you think about; you jump at any chance to be together."

I'm reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan and the above excerpt was his into a chapter which describes what being in a love relationship with God can be like when we're motivated by love, instead of fear or obligation. It shames me to admit it, but my time with the Lord has been more of quick prayers on my drive to work, skimming my Bible, leafing through devotionals, being "too tired" to spend time on my knees at His feet in worship. . .I remember telling someone just a couple of years ago that having time with the Lord each morning was like drinking water - I had to have it to survive. I remember eagerly opening my Bible each day in anticipation, singing worship songs as I drifted off to sleep and waking up with a song of praise swirling about in my head before I was even fully awake. I'd never felt more alive or more close to the Lord in my life.

I've been wondering lately. . .if I'm struggling with this now, how would I ever be able to be married and have kids?? Putting God first; making Him my priority as a single can be a challenge sometimes. How do wives and moms keep things balanced?

How do I find my way back to that place of having God as my first love? What things need to be stripped away? Lord, transform this lukewarm heart of mine. Forgive me for putting my To Do list, time with friends and family and the worries of this world ahead of my relationship with You. I want to be more captivated by You than anyone or anything else. Please infuse me with Your love so I can be filled to overflowing and pour into those around me. Needing an extra measure of Your grace today.

Love,
Jen