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This is an excerpt of an email I wrote to a sweet friend of mine.
"I'm trying hard to keep the balance on my new blog - being real about the struggle of singleness without falling into the woe-is-me-complaining mode. I want the blog to be a place of connection and refreshment. I think you can be honest without being negative or bitter, you know? You (my friend) have that balance, I think. I so appreciate your transparency, but even on the hardest days, you come back to what you know to be true about God and His character and His promises.
Though I don't share this often, I have my nights when tears stream down my face and I wish I could give my heart to someone and my empty arms ache to hold a child of my own. (this happens when I'm around godly couples with sweet kids whose marriages I deeply respect and admire, but, at the same time, their relationships are such an encouragement. It means what I'm looking for - though rare even in the church - is still out there!) If that is not God's plan for me, I pray that He will direct me somewhere else and help me channel the love I long to give to a husband and family into the lives of others. Then, I have other days when I wake up smiling & humming to myself for no reason at all - just happy to be alive and loving my little life."
Hmmmm. . .yes, striving for balance.
