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So, here's me being really honest. I've been struggling lately with feeling forgotten by the Lord. Of course I know in my head that isn't truth, but with 3 friends getting engaged in the last 2 weeks (one of them being a "little" girl I used to babysit!). . .well, the sinful flesh side of me wonders, "Why can't I join them in that season of life?" It's not at all that I don't want them to be engaged - that is an answer to my prayers for them! - but I wistfully wish I was there, too. I know, I know, it's so petty and I hate that I can't just purely rejoice and not think of myself. Ugh!
Such a weird place to be: rejoicing for others, yet longing to have my heart's desires fulfilled at the same time. It's a tug of war in my heart!
A couple of days ago, a friend sent me this encouraging and timely text: ". . .have felt all day long like the Lord wants you to know He has not forgotten you."
Then I opened up my devotional book and my eyes fell on the words I'd highlighted a year ago: "It is very easy to fall into the habit of doubting, worrying, wondering if God has forsaken us, and thinking that after all we have been through, our hopes are going to end in failure."
I swallowed hard and remembered what my pastor and pastor's wife said in recent messages. They talked about how praise is one of our best weapons in the fight for joy. Choosing to praise the Lord in the midst of discouragement isn't easy. That's why it's called the sacrifice of praise. But my weary heart often feels lighter when I stop to praise the Lord through worship and thank Him for all He's already graciously given me.
So thankful for the sweet ways He chose to patiently remind me this week that He hasn't forgotten me. :)
"Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27:14
