"These are for you," my sister cheerfully handed me a bag of clothes. I squealed with delight as I dug through the cute stylish items that had not made the cut on her latest closet survey.
Then my fingers came across something soft and silky. I pulled out a beautiful white satin robe with tiny white flowers and butterflies on it. I remembered watching her open it as a gift 7 years ago. It was brand new.
"I was saving it for when you get married. . ."her voice trailed off and the faintest hint of a sad smile crossed her face. We both knew that marriage was nowhere in sight for me and a wave of discontentment threatened to overwhelm me. And then the questions swooped in like vultures to prey on my mind, "Why? What did I do wrong? Has God forgotten me? Will I ever be married? Is she giving me this because she's given up, too?"
Part of Sweet Ella's prescription for contentment suddenly came to mind (Calm My Anxious Heart):
* Never picture yourself in any other circumstances or someplace else.
* Never compare your lot with another's
* Never allow yourself to wish this or that had been otherwise
I swallowed the lump in my throat, bravely smiled and said, "Thank you."
~ I feel selfish praying for marriage when God has flooded my life with so many blessings already. He knows what I need better than anyone and what will bring Him the most glory. . .for now, that's singleness. I don't understand, but I know He is good and everything He does is good.
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